All In?

Having spent time in Vegas All In can mean a couple of things. Either you have a great hand or you want people to think that you do. You push all of your earnings into the center of the table and await the last cards to be shown from the dealer.

It is really blind faith. You are either going home or gaining a lot of chips. if nothing else it can be a rush.

Here in the real world all in takes on a different meaning. The last few days I have been brought to a place of having to decide what direction my life was going to take. As Wheeler would say it sure was easy being a son. Now the big boy pants are on life gets more difficult.

I realized Monday that choosing to accept lies and lay down the gifting that I had I had hurt people that I loved. That frustrated me. It upped the ante so to speak.

Then Tuesday and Wednesday my life went all to hell. There was no trigger. No bad meetings. No drama. Nope. The bottom just fell out of my life.

This morning as I was praying I heard the Lord say All In. The question was posed would I rather create my own breakthrough for my family or would I rather turn it over to God and let Him finish the work that He has started. Interesting proposition.

On one hand it sure would be nice to be working and providing the finer things for my family like say a house. But on the other hand I had to step back and look at how God has positioned Shelly and I and the impact we were already having on the Body here at the Lake. It was decision time. Was I going to hold my meager stack of chips or was I going to push them all to the middle of the table?

The decision was made. God had brought us this far He isn't going to stop the work that He has began so all the chips are now in the middle of the table and God is the dealer.

What will this decision look like 5 years from now? Don't know. I have told God that I would preach His Word all over the world and to pull back now just because my personal life is uncomfortable didn't seem right. Not when there are so many more hurting people out here that need the gifting that Shelly and I bring.

When it is all said and done I may not have much in way of earthly possessions but if this positions me for the Father's ministry and creates a place of character and integrity, living a life worthy of the calling, what else is there in this life?

Besides, I was created for such a time as this. Father I am in. All in. Not my will but Yours be done in my life.