Not my will but Yours be done

When I was in high school I got into a fight with another kid. I remember the details to this day. After I had hit him in the head a couple of times I knew the kid could not see anymore but he kept coming at me.

I remember it not because of the violence so much as for what my teacher, Mr. Dean, did during the fight. He wrapped his arm around my chest leaving my left hand free. I remember leaning back into his chest waiting should I have to fight some more.

I was reminded of that a few days ago because that seems like where I am at currently in my walk with God. I am leaning back into His chest. I have a hand free to fight if I need to but I am increasingly aware that I don't have to anymore. That is a nice thought for me and one that I hold onto.

I have been praying for some time now that not my will but God's be done in my life, in my marriage, and in my ministry as already haven been established in heaven.

How many people know it is one thing to pray something along those lines but it is a different story to walk it out?

Here is where I rest on the chest of Jesus, I have confidence that when all hell is breaking loose, when that job offer does not materialize, when Shel has put in her 50th hour of work and it is just Thursday I can rest and listen to the hearbeat of Jesus.

How is this possible? Simple I stand on the Word of God. All things work together for good who love God and to those who are called according to His purpose. (Rom 8:28) We know that we are called here in this time of our lives.

Intimacy. If Jesus continually went away to the mountain to pray and spend time with the Father shouldn't that be where my heart is?

This was a tough one for me because for the longest time I did this out of spirituality and or a spirit of religion. After prayer and fasting my priorities have changed drastically and I love being in the presence of the Father because that is where true ministry is derived.

Lastly when facing circumstances of the day or week I sometimes lose focus and I become concern with how I am to operate corporately in the Body and during those times of silence from those in authority over me or those times I discern that something is not right I have to go back to Jeremiah 29:11 and realize that God knows the plans for me. I have to understand that it does not matter what those in authority over me do or do not do they cannot stop the plan of God for my life.

When I realize this it leads back to intimacy. Time spent in the Father's presence is time well spent.

So when everything is coming against me I understand the prayers of a righteousness availeth much (James 5:16)

And while I am walking this out you know what I have found? When I am resting against the chest of Jesus, I don't hear nor fear the enemy.